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[Realization]

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 6, 2006, 8:35 PM

_{My god...I can't believe it. It's such a big step in my life right now. This morning it was. And I cannot tell you how good this feels.

I finally looked over the months...all the crap I've been through, and how I've been with and all my beloved friends. My family, how I was coming along in life. And finally yesterday, where I pulled off my lovely surprise for Pup.

And I came to the realization...a wonderful realization that makes me smile and giggle silently to myself everytime I think about it. It's so amazing when such a usually-down person gets to this point in their lives. Be it a small step, it's a step nonetheless. And I am not going to joke around this at all...but...

I'm beautiful. Physically.

Yes, I said it! And I actually mean it! Not the most beautiful in the world of course, but beautiful enough that I am in some range! I will not go around and flaunt my new found happiness, or my realizations that took me years to come to.

I feel that...as I mature and grow, and actually have a wonderful support system of friends and a boyfriend that is actually good to me, that I've come to this conclusion thusly.

I can compare myself to other girls now and rationally judge beauty. I'm cutting down on the exaggeration of my flaws, and trying hard to look at my good side. It's a good thing going in the upwards direction, and it feels wonderful.

I really hope that one day, all of you girls (and guys even) that feel down on their looks, in any sort of way...come to their own realization.

Of course, I'll still get the occassional periods of "No! I'm so hideous!" But everyone in this society does nowadays. It's common and natural methinks.

For now, I shall revell in this radiance quietly; not to direct it publicly, but with Pup and close friends that really want to hear it.}

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~GHNeko

Sep 6, 2006, 8:45:31 PM

*smiles gently* Good for you. Its about time you have come to this sense. Know you can believe what your friends have been telling you for so long now. *smiles and thumbs up*

Now...If only I could say the same about me. X33

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=AngellicPhobia

Sep 6, 2006, 8:55:34 PM

Yay!

That's awesome because it's true ^^ I hope your life keeps going in an upwards movement ^_^

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=kitsumie

Sep 6, 2006, 8:58:52 PM

^{Are you kidding me? You've just NOW, relized how beautiful you are? From the first time i saw your picture i was like "Dude.. shes fucking hot!" (not coming onto you or anything!)

Your a great person, a beautiful women, and a wonderful friend, dont let ANYONE tell you otherwise. Because its not true, your also a spectacular (sp?) artist! DONT GIVE UP ICEN!!! (i almost called you Icon XD) *latchs on* :]

Much love

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~Fraleth

Sep 6, 2006, 9:24:42 PM

You want to see my picture?

~DuckyofDoom

Sep 7, 2006, 3:32:29 AM

Good thing is you take it maturely then some do now or days. They go around strutin everywhere and boast on how good they look, but you don't which is a good thing! Very good. Me, I aint the best looking thing, no where near it! xD But that dosen't me I look down on myself, means I see I need to get better which I am doing. I need to lose a few pounds, and I'm tryin my best. I don't eat much, I exercise and such. I'm losing it rediculiously slow but at least it's going away. Anywho yeah I'll look better down the road sooo whatever. I aint no where the best looking thing, specially with the dark circles under my eye. I look like a crack head. <.<;;; Can't sleep.. o.O;;

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*BanzaiRabbit

Sep 7, 2006, 3:52:22 AM

About time. ^^

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~KnivesOfRomance

Sep 7, 2006, 10:32:40 AM

GOOD JOB BEEP

. I'm still getting there ._. but I dunno. I'm just glad you feel good about youself now ^_^;

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~link-a

Sep 7, 2006, 11:56:38 AM

I am happy for u.

it is about time u come to relize it. some days i get like that

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